“We’d like to believe that evolution takes place in gentle ways, in gradual steps, but that’s never how it happens. A piece of coal becomes a diamond when tremendous heat and compression are applied. Likewise, when fire and pressure are applied to our lives, it forces us into a new state of being. It also spreads, and an undeniable and unstoppable momentum begins to build. This is what we are seeing now…….” James F. Twyman from “The Proof”
“The fire and pressure …..that forces us into a new way of being. This is what I am feeling these days. It is uncomfortable. I feel unmoored, restless, a deep pressure building from the inside. I find myself restless, unable to get started on new projects…. I keep asking myself, “what time is it?” And it seems like just feeling all this energy is the time.
Something new is stirring. Is it the full moon? Is it 2012? What new state of being is ready to explode forth?
Re-birthing myself. I have certainly done it more than once. We want the birth, I want the birth to be gentle and easy but as J. Twyman said, “We’d like to believe that evolution takes place in gentle ways, in gradual steps, but that’s never how it happens.”
The biggest changes in my life always came like this. A feeling of restlessness or even boredom and then BOOM! The coal becomes a diamond. Tremendous change in a moment even though it’s been building underground for a very long time.
When we begin to work with greater intention and mindfulness, it can seem pretty quiet at first. Not much shifting in our outer worlds. We can become impatient or frustrated…..”this is not working”. But the inner work is powerful. Things begin to shift and change internally but there is a “lag time” before we see the full evidence in our outer world.
But the rumblings are there. Think how the earth feels before the full emergence of spring! We see nothing yet there is a tremendous pressure just below the surface and suddenly the whole world is green!
Are you feeling the rumblings? Are you feeling unmoored, restless? Are you thinking that you are going a bit stir crazy?
Hang in there! Ride the wave. Stay as connected to yourself and your feelings as you can during times of transformation and evolution. It is a wild ride!! But once things settle and you find yourself on the other side, you will smile and say, “Oh, this is what that was all about”:) And you will be glad to be there.
Love to you from this mysterious and amazing world of energy and evolution!! melaniej