I hope that you have been engaged in your own exploration around “I am safe”. I shared some of what I had discovered for myself last week here: http://melaniejwilliams.com/i-am-safe-an-exploration/
I had another ‘aha’ moment last week. I realized that I do not feel that it is SAFE to trust. So the statement was, “It is not safe to trust 100%. ” When I questioned myself as to why that was true this is what I came up with.
“It is not safe to trust completely because I might be disappointed.”
“It is not safe to trust completely because I might look like a fool.”
“It is not safe to trust completely because that would be dangerous.”
Ah!! Interesting!!
Obviously we are wired to feel where there is ‘danger’. That is a good thing. When we get a sick feeling in our stomach or the hair on the back of our neck stands up…..we better pay attention. In this situation it could be dangerous to trust 100% that we are ‘safe’ in this particular situation, location or with this person. And yet we could say, ” It is safe to trust my intuition to show me where there is danger.” YES! We need this!
So it makes sense as to why the last statement showed up, “It is not safe to trust completely because that would be dangerous.”
But I think I want to work on the top two statements. Is it worth it to keep myself from being disappointed or from looking or feeling like a fool to not develop a sense of deeper trust? What do I miss out on, what do I block from not developing deeper trust….from being more open?
That led me to, “How open am I to receive?” When I asked myself that question, I heard/felt 60%. So I broke it down a bit more and tried 61%. Yes, that felt fine. 62%. Yup, ok there. 63%…..oh, I could feel my anxiety begin to build. 64%? NOPE.
So 64% of being open to receive at this point in time. Which would mean that I am blocking or unable to receive 36%!!!! That seems like a lot to me! What am I blocking? More love? Deeper relationships? Greater financial security? Deeper levels of health and stamina?
SO interesting!!
So I am getting clearer and clearer on where I am and where I want to go. This is where I spend my time in my Daily Practice. Just pushing against my comfort levels here…..one point at a time. Just raising it one point would change things!
So where are you in all of this? How able are you to open to receive? The more I can receive the more I have to give. The more I give the more I want to be able to receive.
This has been such a valuable inquiry for myself. I do hope that you are taking the time to do this for yourself. I will continue to clear as I can and see what is the next layer……….much love and encouragement to you on your daily discovery journey!! melaniej
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